Birthday thoughts

Hello!:)
As everyone knows,I have a birthday tomorrow..along with my exam.It's really strange my feeling right now about these two things.
I'm more worried about my birthday than the exam.I'm getting old!!!Really...that's awful.And I don't mean that I'll get ugly or something...I'm affraid that for all these years...I haven't done nothing worthy.My life is empty.There is nothing to be proud with.I'm just one kid-looser...with big dreams but nothing behind them.I know what I want.I know what I can reach...but then I think about that..I realized that's not what one human being has to do in his short life.
Stupid birthday...I hate you!